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 God, you created in me the biggest desire, the most intense craving, an empty lake yearning for its water. 

And I searched. And searched. And found only darkness.

I travelled the planes and the rivers, learned to speak languages and cultures, filled myself with notions and expertise in things of this world, and all the same my bucket was empty.

Empty and hungry!

Yet I knew. I know You. I knew You were here, now and always, I felt your touch, was soothed by your arms, held by your strength. And let to search some more. 

In darkness. In a place where reason and faith cannot merge. In a place where faith alone shines through the clouds. 

Still, I could not reach You, for it was You who had to come to me. It was You who had to light that little flame to help me find the way. Your way. The Real way. 

Alone, I would simply stumble, fall, bleed. Alone, I was lost among millions.

I could not reach you because I was not letting You love me, I could not reach You because I wanted it my way. 

I could not reach You because You do not exist in the depth of mind... I had to bring You into my heart and allow You to open my secret. My darkness. Bring my evil to Your eyes and bow to both the day and the night. Bow to my limits and praise your infinite presence and kindness. 

Bow and see I am nothing with You. Thank You, my Lord, thank You. 

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